sorry I’ve buggerd off recently… but I’m back now
I’ve been wondering round a bit lately, being busy, but not busy … if you know what I mean!
I’ve filled my time with Reiki sessions, Radio, keeping the business ticking over and full-time motherhood while waiting for a business deal to go through.
In so many ways its been great, all this ‘not doing too much malarkey’, but in others its sort of got on my tits, So I had to sort my head out and see where I was going.I’ve been getting frustrated with the slow burning process of a chunky client who requested exclusivity months ago but has failed to actually start the ball rolling yet… so its been a bit like being on ‘Gardening Leave’ without the pay!!!
I realised the other day that I was focused too much on the ‘when’ and not enough of the ‘Now’. My frustration was getting me down and for weeks I’ve felt a wee bit lost. Other issues as well as business then started to manifest, nowt much just a few head fucks here and there, bringing confusion to what is normally a pretty clear mind.
So 2 days ago I meditated on detachment from all the things that were bringing confusion into my life… and just detached from them – SIMPLE! I came out thinking, fuck it is what it is, and it will be will what it will be… AND LOW AND BEHOLD… I woke up to the email I had been waiting 2 months for! And with that, all the other things that were giving me headfucks just seemed to sort themselves out too!!! *Law of attraction or what!
So it looks like I’m heading where i need to go. On the positive I’ve just had a few months off to enjoy my Baby Bell, which has been wonderful. When she was born I was so wrapped up in trying to set up 2 new companies as well as run 2 others i actually lost what was hugely important….TIME and that I’ll never get back… and Ironically I never gained anything for doing that either, in fact i lost from it business and money wise HOWEVER what i did gain was insight, on so many levels!
So this time with Baby Bell has been massive for both of us. So what happens next? I suppose what will be will be…. whether all this hard work is for something, or for nothing – really though, I’m amazingly detached from it all.
Amongst chaos comes clarity – and I do feel… well , clear!
Right – i’m off to reiki my head to sleep
Lots of love to you my darling neglected blog and readers xxxx